So, last Saturday morning
after walking up the hill to the red one-room school 1000 times
and up that same hill to the United Brethren Church where she
was baptized
giggled with her sisters
brought her sons who then giggled at Lily Wolf singing off-key
watched her Pap, and then her Mom buried in the nearby graveyard
and after steps back and forth between the kitchen and serving area
at Nick Yanko’s Restaurant and Grill
and after a walk to the judge to be married to Ike
and two more walks from Ike’s car to the Summit County hospital
to give birth
and after walking up and down up and down up and down stairs to
the cellar to wash clothes
to get stuff out of the freezer
to the upstairs to put boys in bed
to sleep
and to sleep herself
and to put those clothes from the cellar, which had hung outside on the line
in appropriate chester drawers and
make beds, then get preserved
pears
peaches
strawberry and raspberry jelly off the shelves and take them downstairs
after she had, months earlier, carried them all upstairs to put on the shelves,
after she had walked around the church teaching Sunday Schools for years,
making Street Fair pies for many more years
going to meetings: garden club, PTA, Secret Sister, Card Club, 4H, Friendly Class,
then up to Jean’s, up to Tommie’s, down to Olive’s, into town,
up to Betty’s, and back to Grandma’s
after walks through the woods- 2 miles a day with her best friend from up on the hill, then over to the barn to give the workers there some cookies,
or the one with a birthday a cake,
and then out to the mailbox (over and over and over) again to mail her sons,
then her grandsons and granddaughters
cookies
candy
more strawberry jelly
and more cookies
and more
and after she walked to where they buried Dad, and back there for all the reasons wives of 50 years go back to see where their husband is lying
and after she walked in that massive house alone for three years,
after she walked in the assisted living home around and around and around the hallways,
then around and around other hallways, looking now in increasing emptiness of thought for her Pap, her brothers Harry or Tom- when are they coming? Where are they?
walking walking walking walking walking
walking
and then,
last Saturday morning,
right after breakfast in the dining room of the Care Center,
there was a
final step.
One Last Step.
And her legs would go no further.. Or the mind which told the legs to “go” stopped
(more likely)
and so those of us who walked with her along parts of that long Walk through Pennsylvania, Ohio, Alabama, and Texas and parts of ten decades
must look back for her (with her as best we can)
remembering what she would remember about that
Walk.
(and now she sits)
it breaks my heart wide open…..