There is no name that I am aware of for this:
When an adult has a baby- a little baby, a 2 month, 3 month, maybe 6 month old baby..
When an adult- and it doesn’t matter, woman or man- when an adult
has a little baby in their lap and the baby is a little bit awake or not at all,
the adult will softly wiggle, almost without thinking, the first knuckle of their little finger into the baby’s fist.
There is no name for that wiggling of the little finger into the smaller much smaller hand,
nor has there been, nor will there be..
there shouldn’t be, mustn’t ever be
because to name that moment or minute or whole naptime (it doesn’t matter)
to name that time would be to shrink, subdue, even subjugate that time into meanings
understood only (maybe) by the adult so squeezed when, in fact,
the baby- no matter how small, even a day, even an hour- has begun with the adult
to make all things
Because that’s how important such an encounter is, even one like this that is nameless.
The adult and the baby..
(stop here and remember, not with your mind but with the skin of your little fingertip, the last time that wiggle-then-squeeze happened. If your fingertip doesn’t remember then bring the memory up from the ancestral imagination that you were born with and that was unlocked the first time forever when you squeezed that impossibly warm handful of someone’s little finger however many years ago that was. Either way, remember without words, without meaning, just feel).
The adult separates the softclenched baby’s fist with a softmaneuvering fingertip. Why?
Because the wave spills onto the beach and reaches into the sands there as deeply as it can;
Because flower petals spread in the heat of the sun to gather as much sunlight as possible;
Because the crow lifts its head then it its wings to the updraft blowing to nowhere but lifting joy.
That’s why: it is the only reason why it has to be the only way it is that humans can be.
A stillpoint in the history of the universe. Touch, squeeze………
Pause, don’t breathe for a moment. Pause.
The dance ends and the dance begins, the dance of everything that was, becomes the dance of everything that will be and both halves of eternity rest now in this moment where stories end and stories begin and where spirit wiggles and spirit squeezes and it is a single action that reverberates in all that is
Or maybe that single action-wiggle/squeeze, squeeze/wiggle- is God,
or maybe not.
There is no word that I am aware of for this.1
1 The difference in the ages of the participants in this..dance, shall we call it?..means this: not much. The adult, thus squeezed, will never separate from the baby squeezing and will, if asked, if the need is known, if privileged to, die even violently rather than know the baby is to be harmed in almost any way if such sacrificial action does not occur. Adults so touched, part of the eternal stillpoint, will lose part of themselves- their indefinable wordless selves- forever, willingly, in the baby’s fist and the baby, even without the cognitive ability to recall anything specific about the adult, or even know that the warmth squeezed was an adult will, nonetheless, hold that adult within the deepest part of their historic memory, that part of memory which belongs to the ages and always will.